Modeling Attempt

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Photographer : Phosphorus Erbium

I tried out modeling about a month ago. Here are the shots I liked the most. 🙂

I will be moving to a new neighborhood at the end of the month. I am excited but also nervous. I wish I could just snap my fingers and it would be done. I am stressed out that some kind of obstacle will appear on moving day. I am, however, looking forward to the new chapter in my new space! I can’t wait to paint and decorate.

Sorry I haven’t written more lately. I do have a couple of posts stuck in draft because they aren’t quite done yet.

I am about to update my photography page as well so check it out if you haven’t already 🙂

Take care

xxx

☀️ Fresh Start ☀️

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As those of you who know me and whoever has read this blog know I am trying to make productive changes in my life.

Recently I got a gym membership, a new tattoo, my boyfriend gave me a beautiful ring, and I shaved off my hair! All symbols of self improvement, a new beginning, & love.

I have tried to start fresh many times and have relapsed each time so far. I do expect to have my days where I feel bad and don’t eat as much, it has already happened, but I intend to not let those days keep me down. This time is the first time I am going to the gym. This will make a difference. I was nervous at first but my boyfriend has been going with me and showing me the ropes! It’s actually kinda fun 🙂

I am trying to visualize myself heavier and I keep a bathing suit up on the wall for me to see everyday so that I am reminded of my weight gain goal. It would be a dream come true to be able to be comfortable enough in my body to wear a swimsuit! The last time I was in a swimsuit was when I was 13 years old, I am now 27!

I have gained a couple of pounds in the last couple of weeks. However, in the past few days I worked more and ate less. My mood shifted in the negative as well. It has been very dark and rainy too and my thoughts began to match the weather. Tonight I am doing laundry and waiting for my friend from out of town to arrive. I just ordered a pizza. I will take some Apetamin, a vitamin syrup that helps stimulate an appetite and slows down your metabolism, and eat as much as I can.

We may not always see it but the sun is always shining.

Thank you to everyone for the positive feedback on my posts so far!

Cheers from Canada

❤ 🙂

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 And… a jacket my boyfriends mother gave to me! ❤ 

Collection of selfies from 2017

Just collected all my favorite selfies from last year. Kind of a lot but oh well. I had gained 10 pounds earlier in the year and it boosted my self-esteem and I dressed up a bit more. Unfortunately I have lost the weight I gained and a little bit more. Posting these for self-love, appreciation and motivation purposes. Enjoy xox

 

 

 

This is my 5th blog post in one night. Time for bed now. I am super stoked and optimistic about the future and the new changes I will be slowly making and tonight I was definitely stoked on having a brand new blog. Let’s see if I keep this up!