I tried out modeling about a month ago. Here are the shots I liked the most. 🙂
I will be moving to a new neighborhood at the end of the month. I am excited but also nervous. I wish I could just snap my fingers and it would be done. I am stressed out that some kind of obstacle will appear on moving day. I am, however, looking forward to the new chapter in my new space! I can’t wait to paint and decorate.
Sorry I haven’t written more lately. I do have a couple of posts stuck in draft because they aren’t quite done yet.
I am about to update my photography page as well so check it out if you haven’t already 🙂
My friend gave me a piece of Malachite. It’s a gorgeous piece and it’s meaning is very appropriate for me right now.
It is a Stone of Transformation, assisting one in changing situations and providing for spiritual growth. It heals on physical and emotional levels, drawing out impurities and stimulating the Life Force throughout the aura and body.
Malachite is a protection stone, absorbing negative energies and pollutants from the atmosphere and from the body.
As a stone of transformation, Malachite encourages change and emotional risk-taking. It shows what is blocking your spiritual growth, draws out deep feelings and psychosomatic causes, then allows you to break unwanted ties and outworn patterns. It encourages the expression of feelings, alleviating shyness and teaching the responsibility for one’s own thoughts and actions. It supports friendships and empathy for other people.
Malachite helps battle depression and anxiety, gives resistance to emotional blackmail and heals emotional abuse, especially when suffered in childhood. It also encourages healthy relationships based on love and not need.Malachite assists in overcoming fear of confrontation, or fear of being seen or noticed, and helps one find the strength within to assume their rightful place in the Universe.
I am a person with a lot of negative energy dwelling within, a lot of anger and resentment towards myself and others. I acknowledge this is a problem that I want to overcome. I’m tired of living in the past, I want to enjoy life moment to moment. I acknowledge that this transformation will be ongoing for the rest of my life and that it wont always be easy especially in the beginning. I am making progress though. It’s little so far but it still counts. ❤
As those of you who know me and whoever has read this blog know I am trying to make productive changes in my life.
Recently I got a gym membership, a new tattoo, my boyfriend gave me a beautiful ring, and I shaved off my hair! All symbols of self improvement, a new beginning, & love.
I have tried to start fresh many times and have relapsed each time so far. I do expect to have my days where I feel bad and don’t eat as much, it has already happened, but I intend to not let those days keep me down. This time is the first time I am going to the gym. This will make a difference. I was nervous at first but my boyfriend has been going with me and showing me the ropes! It’s actually kinda fun 🙂
I am trying to visualize myself heavier and I keep a bathing suit up on the wall for me to see everyday so that I am reminded of my weight gain goal. It would be a dream come true to be able to be comfortable enough in my body to wear a swimsuit! The last time I was in a swimsuit was when I was 13 years old, I am now 27!
I have gained a couple of pounds in the last couple of weeks. However, in the past few days I worked more and ate less. My mood shifted in the negative as well. It has been very dark and rainy too and my thoughts began to match the weather. Tonight I am doing laundry and waiting for my friend from out of town to arrive. I just ordered a pizza. I will take some Apetamin, a vitamin syrup that helps stimulate an appetite and slows down your metabolism, and eat as much as I can.
We may not always see it but the sun is always shining.
Thank you to everyone for the positive feedback on my posts so far!
So today I went to one of my favorite second hand clothing stores to look for something nice to wear to a burlesque show my friend and I are going to this weekend… I did find some pretty tops and… a faux fur coat! Only $15 too. It was just there standing out, calling to me. This now my 5th faux fur and I decided to make a post about it and share my collection. I absolutely love them! It is now too warm to wear it but I will be rocking it this winter! It has pom poms too! 😀
So there is my collection. I am aware that I should created a cleaner/less distracting background for outfit photos. I will try to figure something out for future posts.
Thanks so much to everyone who has read my blog so far!