Circumstances and Choices

*Updated April 18th; Video added at the end of the post, Enjoy.*

Bad experiences are not an excuse to become a bad person.

We are a product of the choices we make, not the circumstances that we face. – Roger Crawford 
When you are born into and/or face unfortunate and difficult circumstances in your life you have two choices on how you can deal with these experiences:
First, you can allow these experiences to consume you and to hold you back. You cause harm to yourself and to others. You allow anything difficult and painful that happened to you turn you into a unfavorable person. A person unable to take action, make changes and take responsibility. You become toxic.
Or, you can use these obstacles as stepping stones to become someone great, to rise above them and to not let them hold you back. You acknowledge what happened, break the chain and move on. You seek help when needed and perhaps even take the extra step to help others who faced the same challenges as you. You become strong.
The road is tougher when you are faced with obstacles and perhaps in some cases it is a bit more limited. However those who face the toughest battles are still capable of being the best they can be. These are people we admire.
Your circumstances set the stage but your choices determine the show.


Garnier Nutrisse Ultra Color – Darkest Blue 310 & Previous Blue Hair Experiences ♥

***Update April 28th, 2018 >> I would not recommend this hair dye as it faded very quickly!***


So a few posts ago I talked about being a blonde and staying one.. then this ended up happening last week. I bleached my roots no problem but when it came to the toning part, it didn’t turn out. My roots were still yellow and the rest of the strand was toned. So a mix of yellow/white/gray/violet. I saw that and decided just to go dark. Decided it would be the easiest and most low maintenance choice for the time being.

I do like to dye my hair different colors but that is as far as I am willing to go. I don’t like spending much time on it beyond that. Trying to be a cool toned blonde just wasn’t working out for me, it was costing a lot of time and money. Had to use specific a shampoo and conditioner as well which also costed more. I’m sure i’ll try to be a light blonde again someday but not anytime soon. I am naturally an ash blonde which is a cool toned blonde but it’s the bleach that makes my hair turn yellow and that is what I didn’t like and tried to get out. It’s a lot of work. Next time I do this I will be going to a professional. I am loving this color though. Blue is the color I have dyed my hair the most. Here are some older pictures from previous blue experiences:



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This picture is a decade old… Grade 12.

Having my hair a dark blue reminds me of wonder woman…


I absolutely love the combination of the primary colors!

…So yes, this is my new hair as well as a dump of old photos, more than I expected but oh well! I see I have new followers, I say hello to you. To let you know my blog will probably mainly consist of self help and discovery as well as pictures I take which is usually nature, home, architecture, my cat and of myself. I would like to start talking about politics too but that is not for certain… Thank you for taking the time to read my posts! Cheers from Canada



  1. having reached an advanced stage of mental or emotional development characteristic of an adult.

Something I became more aware of recently is that age has nothing to do with being mature. I used to equate age with wisdom; the older you are the more wiser you are. This is incorrect. Wisdom is not gained through experience alone. Wisdom is gained with both experience and how you interpret and react to those experiences. And it is how you interpret and react to those experiences that define whether or not you are mature.

Higher age simply means more time. The longer you’ve been around, the longer you’ve had the time to think about how to live your life and conduct yourself. What I have seen recently, is that just because a person has been around longer than I have doesn’t necessarily mean they are more mature. A person can be around decades more than I and still act childish. It’s not about your age, it is about your choices.

You need to first become aware of your behavior and outlook on life, then and only then can you make the CHOICE to improve. Your age doesn’t play a significant role if any at all in this. Making the effort to improve and changing yourself is the process of maturing and once you reach a certain point you enter the realm of wisdom. Maturing, wisdom, and bettering yourself in general are always ongoing processes.

Age >> Maturity >> Wisdom

I looked around the internet for ‘signs of maturity’ and I found this list of 25 Signs of Maturity  I have a lot to work on as far as growing up. Being a mature, classy, stylish, drama-free woman is what I desire to be. I will go through the points and see in which ways I am mature and in which ways I can improve. My personal comments on each point may be of no interest to you but I recommend going through the points and reflecting on your own behavior. 

1. Realizing how much you don’t know.
 ✅ Oh yes, I am very aware of how little I know and that there will never be enough time to learn all that I want to know but I can at least make an effort to learn as much as possible.

2. Listening more and talking less.
This is something I used to be good at. I was the person you could count on to listen to you. I have become more annoying in my opinion as far as talking too much sometimes. This applies more to when I am drinking or with my boyfriend. I need to listen more. This is definitely something that I need to work on. 

3. Being aware and considerate of others as opposed to being self-absorbed, self-centered, and inconsiderate.
 Yes I definitely try to pay attention to those around me and their needs especially if they are at my place or I am visiting theirs. Also when out in public I try to pay attention. I can definitely work on being more aware in public though. I do not have any interest in being self-absorbed, self-centered, and inconsiderate. If I were to find out that I do actually have those qualities I would be devastated. I do believe in the importance of taking care of our own needs and self love, but you can do that without being selfish. Putting my needs first is something I do have to work on. I am too passive which can lead to being taken advantage of.

4. Not taking everything personally, getting easily offended, or feeling the need to defend, prove, or make excuses for yourself.
 I take a lot of things personally. I am hard on myself and can take things the wrong way when people say things to me. As for feeling the need to defend, prove, or make excuses for myself… I do try to be conscious enough of myself NOT to do any of those things.  If you have a problem with something in your life, shut up and do something about it to fix it!

5. Being grateful and gracious, not complaining.
 I think I have this one down for the most part. I definitely try not to be a complainer. People who just complain about their problems and complain about others become toxic to themselves and those around them. I can always work on being more grateful and gracious though!

6. Taking responsibility for your own health and happiness, not relying on others to “fix” you or placing blame for your circumstances.
 I am aware that my health is my own responsibility. If someone does something to me and I am stressed out because of it, it is my responsibility to find a way to not be stressed out about it. We are responsible for how we react to what happens to us.

7. Having forgiveness and compassion for yourself and others.
 I have to work on having forgiveness for myself and others. It’s hard for me to forgive sometimes, I do hold grudges and resentment. As for compassion I think I do have this for others, not so much for myself.

8. Being calm and peaceful, not desperate, frantic, or irrational.
✘ I need to work on being more calm and peaceful. I am stressed out and anxious a lot. This is a big one I am working on.

9. Showing flexibility and openness as opposed to resisting, controlling, or being unreasonable.
 I think I have this down for the most part. Not controlling and no desire to control another human being. Perhaps I am guilty of resisting from time to time. I do try to be conscious of being reasonable. I do not want to be an unreasonable person. Reason and logic are important to me.

10. Helping yourself, not just expecting others to do it for you out of a sense of entitlement.
 Yes I do help and take care of myself. I do not rely on others to do so for me. In fact I prefer taking care of myself. 

11. Doing good deeds even when there is nothing in it for you other than knowing you helped, being selfless.
 Absolutely! Could always do more good deeds though!

12. Respecting another’s point of view, beliefs, and way of life without judgment, not insisting you are right, belittling another, or using profanity or violence to get your point across.
 I think this is one of the things like the second point above (listen more, talk less) that I used to be good at but no longer am. This point is one that I have been bad at with the boyfriend more than anyone else. No one has pushed my buttons more than this individual haha, BUT, that is no excuse for becoming angry with him and putting him down just because I don’t agree.

13. Sharing your good fortune with others.
Not sure if I am this one or not. I am thinking about fortune, looking at its definition… I don’t really have a fortune to share with others but if I did I’d like to think I would share. I do try to treat my friends and boyfriend when I can.

14. Being able to turn the other cheek without wishing harm on another.
 I am too bothered by other peoples behavior, I do need to work on just focusing on my own life and being the best I can be. Not to be bothered by people whom I feel are truly bad people or people who behave badly.

15. Thinking before acting and having good manners, not going off half-cocked, lashing out, or being rude.
This one I have for the most part. Drunk Anna could improve on this though.

16. Encouraging and being supportive of others.
I do encourage and support my loved ones.

17. Finding joy in the success of someone else, not envy or criticism.
 This is a big one for me. Envy was and perhaps is still my biggest sin. Lately I have been much more grateful though for what I do have and not so much concerned with those that are more successful than me. Lately I am more appreciative of my life especially now that I have my boyfriend. He makes me really happy and I do feel lucky to have found this person. So because of my more recent appreciation of what I feel lucky to have (love) I haven’t been as envious of others.

18. Knowing there is always room to grow and improve and reaching out for help.
Yes, always room to grow and improve until your last breath. I have been reaching out for help more too. 

19. Having humility and laughing at yourself.
 This one. Absolutely need to work on this. Relates to a previous point… need to stop taking things personally. Let it go, laugh, have fun.

20. Recognizing that which does not work in your life and making an effort to do something different.
 I put an ‘X’ here since this one is a work in progress for me. I am currently trying to make changes to myself. For now, just mental changes but eventually I want to make physical changes as well.

21. Passing up instant gratification in favor of long term benefits.
I do appreciate long term benefits over short term ones. I do try to consider the long term consequences of my actions.

22. Accepting, liking, and loving yourself, not needing someone else to “complete” you.
 Well I do not feel a need for someone else to complete me. However I do need to start accepting, liking, and loving myself more. I do feel I have improved on that a little bit.

23. Standing up for fairness and justice for yourself and others and choosing to do the right thing.
 I am too passive. Need to speak up more.

24. Making sacrifices for the good of others without resentment.
 For the most part I think I have this one down. Not perfect at it though. There have definitely been times where I have gotten fed up with someone if I feel I am the only one making an effort and resent them for it.

25. Not clinging to materialistic items or bragging.
I can’t deny my love for some of my possessions but I am not attached to anything material. I don’t brag.

SO there is the list. I hope it is at least a bit eye opening for you as it was for me. There are other lists out there with different points but I felt this one has a lot that I need to work on which is why I chose it to reflect on.


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A Week Without Facebook

I just ended a break from Facebook for a week. This is one of many many breaks I’ve taken from it. Now that it is back on my phone I am trying not to use it. I browsed it twice today. I’m thinking of deactivating it again but keeping messenger, not even sure if I’ll do that though. Anyone who I do speak to on a regular basis knows how to get in touch with me. Life without Facebook is pretty nice. I recommend you try it out at least once to see the difference and gain a better understanding of the role of social media in your daily routine. I especially recommend deactivating to those who haven’t done it before. Facebook has been around for over a decade now, and a lot of us have had it for most of that time. Are you someone who has had it consistently during that time? For years? If so you should try going without it for a week. If the only thing that is holding you back is to be able to message people please know that you can deactivate Facebook yet continue using messenger. Instructions here.

My best friend hasn’t been on Facebook for years… what a brave gal! My boyfriend recently decided to stop using Facebook and is enjoying life without it. He reads a lot these days. I have done it before for a few months; I lived in an apartment with no internet for a couple of seasons. I really enjoyed that time. Without internet, (only had basic mobile data on an old phone and didn’t use it much) I felt freer. I read and socialized more during that time and was more relaxed and happier.

I appreciate social media but like anything else if it is used excessively it is bad for you. It is still being researched on whether or not there is a link and/or relationship between mental health and social media. I can tell you from personal experience that this link does exist for me. If you are one of those people who can have social media but don’t have the urge to check it constantly and use it in moderation you’re probably fine. But if you are like me and check frequently during the day then it will most likely become a problem if it isn’t already. Looking at pretty pictures of things and people can lead me to feeling incompetent. It’s a strange thing to do when I think about it. Looking at other peoples lives on a tiny screen instead of doing much with mine. How sad. I pretty much only use Facebook and Instagram but have spent a significant amount of time on these platforms.

As I have mentioned before I am trying to make changes. Last night was the first time in two weeks that I did not write in my journal. I better write in it tonight. At least I am writing here. I have been reading every day, but some days I read for less than an hour. Overall though I am happy with my very little progress so far. I do expect the complete transformation into a happier human to take a few years. It’s only been a couple of weeks but I am still optimistic.



The Four Agreements

The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz based on ancient Toltec wisdom.

Be Impeccable With Your Word

☼ Speak with integrity. 
☼ Say only what you mean.
☼ Avoid using the word to speak against yourself or to gossip about others.
☼ Use the power of your word in the direction of truth and love.


Don’t Take Anything Personally

☼ Nothing others do is because of you.
☼ What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream.
☼ When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won’t be the victim of needless suffering.


Don’t Make Assumptions

☼ Find the courage to ask questions and to express what you really want.
☼ Communicate with others as clearly as you can to avoid misunderstandings, sadness, and drama.
☼ With just this one agreement, you can completely transform your life.


Always Do Your Best

☼ Your best is going to change from moment to moment; it will be different when you are healthy as opposed to sick.
☼ Under any circumstance, simply do your best, and you will avoid self-judgment, self-abuse, and regret.


This was a quick and influential read. I used to not talk shit about others until recently and it has been towards/about a couple of people. For the most part in my life I have avoided serious drama. I am going to try harder to not talk shit anymore and not participate in emotional theatrics nearby and go back to how I used to be. I used to believe that even if I did not like a person that it would not be right to attack their appearance or just attack them in general. I’m going to work on that.

I must work on not using the word against others but I also have to work on not using the word against myself too. I need to stop saying and thinking to myself that I suck, that I am fucking stupid, that I am ugly, that I ruin everything, that I have no purpose in life, that I barely exist… Even if any of these statements are true I should not say them to myself. By saying these things I am limiting myself. I am not even giving myself a chance to be anything or anybody by just immediately drawing the conclusion that I will fail and am a failure. “Use the power of your word in the direction of truth and love.” So instead of saying and thinking negative statements I have to try and say and think positive, even if I don’t fully believe in them so that someday I will and I will at least feel good enough to be comfortable in my skin and enjoy life.

Don’t take anything personally. That is a big one for me. I find myself feeling upset very often. This is one of the big reasons for my recent decision to make these changes to my life. I am literally tire and sick of feeling down. Because I feel shitty I do not do anything, not even eat properly, and because I am not doing anything I am feeling shitty. It is a cycle. I want to escape it and this week I feel I did a good job in starting to change my mentality. It’s only the end of week 1 but I still feel optimistic. Without a doubt there will continue to be many moments as I experienced every day this week where I am going to  feel anxious, mad, upset, or sad but I will continue working on overcoming these feelings and turning myself around. I was able to do it this week pretty well. …Seriously though, every day this week at least once I starting feeling bad and angry about past events but I got through them. This will take time.

Don’t make assumptions. This is another one that Anna needs to improve on a lot. I want to avoid conflict so I will make assumptions in order not to engage any further but these assumptions end up bringing me conflict which I wanted to avoid in the first place. Verbal communication skills are not my forte.

This change will be an ongoing process but I look forward to the prosperous results and lifestyle.







There’s a cure for aging that no one talks about. It’s called learning. In my mind, as long as you learn something new each day, stretch your personal frontiers and improve the way you think, you cannot grow old. Aging only happens to people who lose their lust for getting better and disconnect from their natural base of curiosity. – Robin Sharma

Another goal to add to my new schedule. So not only do I have to read and write everyday I have to make sure I learn something new as well. All these tasks go together though so it will work out.

I love to learn, I really do. One thing that is a bit pressing that I need to work on is learning Russian. This without a doubt will take years but that actually is something I should work on daily too. There is a chapter in Robin Sharma’s Greatness Guide where it talks about making a list of things you want to do before you die. That definitely would be beneficial to me to write out as well.

I have only one job today and after that I will go to the library to return a book then I plan to visit Arsenal

I live in the big and beautiful city of Montreal that has endless places to visit and activities so I need to explore it more often. Exploring, being outdoors, and visiting new places make me really happy and I need to do them. Robin Sharma also talks about enjoy the simple pleasures in life and those pleasures are truly what makes me the happiest. Time to stop starving myself and staying indoors feeling like I do not belong have no purpose in life. It’s time to go out and start living.



Collection of selfies from 2017

Just collected all my favorite selfies from last year. Kind of a lot but oh well. I had gained 10 pounds earlier in the year and it boosted my self-esteem and I dressed up a bit more. Unfortunately I have lost the weight I gained and a little bit more. Posting these for self-love, appreciation and motivation purposes. Enjoy xox




This is my 5th blog post in one night. Time for bed now. I am super stoked and optimistic about the future and the new changes I will be slowly making and tonight I was definitely stoked on having a brand new blog. Let’s see if I keep this up!