So I am a natural ash blonde but I’ve been trying to be a lighter blonde for several months now and I was having a hard time getting the color I wanted. I went to a hair dresser last week for the first time in a decade and am happy with the result. My end goal is to have white hair but that will take time. My choice for a white blonde is a compromise between my boyfriend and I. He is not a fan of the wild colors which I’ve been rocking for years but I am not down for going 100% natural either. So with a very light blonde I am still natural in a way but also wild. That is how I see it. I need a hair color that is striking and bold, that is just part of me and what I like. I’ve also had short hair for a very long time too and of course he wants me to grow it out… I will try but not making any promises!
Each day, life will send you little windows of opportunity. Your destiny will ultimately be defined by how you respond to these windows of opportunity. Shrink from them and your life will be small. Feel the fear and run to them anyway, and your life will be big. – Robin Sharma, The Greatness Guide
My life thus far has been quite limited. It has overall been rather boring, with the exception of time spent with my boyfriend. I don’t exit my comfort zone very often and I’ve been dealing with the bad habit of staying inside, not eating, thinking negative things over and over again and simply not being healthy and productive. My health and overall well-being has slowly been deteriorating over the years and I have reached the point where I’ve had enough.
We had a very cold winter this year and the weather is finally getting warmer. I wanted to go out for a walk and take pictures today but I was too sick to do so. I have to go out for more walks and spend more time with nature instead of allowing myself to be consumed indoors watching videos and being consumed by social media. Not only do I not pursue the the windows of opportunity that life presents to me, the amount of opportunities have been small since I don’t stray far from home.
I am a Sagittarius; I crave adventure. It is time for more adventures.
Okay so once again (for the hundredth time) I am starting a new blog.
Will I ever stick to this and be consistent?
I am currently reading a book I picked up in a free little library in Saint-Henri the other day. It was meant to be for me to find this book: The Greatness Guide by Robin Sharma. I’ve recently also decided (again) that I have to try harder to make changes to my lifestyle. This book is great and I do intend on writing about some of the ideas expressed in it.
It has only be a few days since the new beginning has started. Two new plans are to read for at least 1 hour everyday and to write in a journal daily.
In the Fall of 2014 I started university for the first time in my life. My first year I did prerequisite courses for computer science. My second year at university was my first year of computer science. My third year of university, Fall 2016, is when I transitioned from computer science to political science. This Winter semester of 2018 was my third semester of political science. I only lasted a few classes. It’s unfortunate that so much time and money was spent only to finally accept that university was not the place for me. I had doubts from the beginning but continued nonetheless only to find myself becoming less and less fulfilled and feeling out of place. I entered university to get out of the call center industry which I had been a part of for several years. At the very last call center I worked at I became very depressed, to the point of not wanted to get out of bed and was constantly on the verge of tears in my daily life. I could not function. I couldn’t stand it any longer and decided to go into school to escape it. I picked computer science because it is a promising and popular field. I had an interest in web design growing up and thought I would also be into other aspects of this field. I was not. I realized once inside that this was not the field for me. I am not overall interested in computers, I love to use them but that is where the love ends. I don’t give two shits about the latest technologies and gadgets. I am a person who even though is aware and very appreciative that technology provides me with a life of comfort and luxury, believes that we are happier with less technology, specifically social media, and when we area connected to the real world. My personal philosophy of the importance of of being in nature and connected to it was conflicted when I was in Computer Science. Now I am not saying that everyone in the Computer Science world is an out-of-touch robot, without a doubt there are individuals that share my beliefs and still rock at what they do in that field but it simply did not work for me. It did not feel right.
While in computer science I took an intro to political science class as an elective and was totally more interested in this subject. I still feel political science is the field I would have most interest in for a bachelors degree but the thing is I don’t think I am interested in getting a job that would be available with a political science degree.
Part of my change of heart is also due to my change of work once I was university. I switched from call centers to labor. I started with a Summer job doing landscaping and then to being a maid which I am to this day. I enjoy this work very much and both experiences have had a very positive impact on me. I’d rather being doing something with my hands, something physical, and something creative than be working at a desk all day.
I do feel bad for the money spent on my education thus far by my father and I have accumulated a student loan debt. However through university I did meet my boyfriend, which I will forever be grateful for. He has changed my life and that is the silver lining of my stressful and confusing university experience.
For now I will continue with my job as maid and focus on improving my mental and physical health.