🔸💠 Throwback Thursday [1] 💠🔸

Two years ago! 😁

I’ve done it all when it comes to hair. I’ve had every color in the rainbow, more than once, and sometimes all at once!

I’m currently growing my hair out from the buzzcut I did this summer. It is still my natural blonde. That is actually new for me, being my natural color.

P.S. check out my super cute UFO necklace!👽

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Hello!

I’m writing here tonight because it has been a while and I am in a good mood. I’ve actually been feeling better lately. I was super stressed for a little while, then I had pains in my stomach, then my cat passed away. A few negative things happened in a short period of time and I was really down. My eyes were dark and dry from crying so much. Now I am bouncing back.

I miss my cat a lot. She was my little roommate. It’s only been 11 days; I’m still not used to her not being around. I had her cremated so she is still here with me. I may release the ashes somewhere nice next summer, but for now I want her with me. I had her for 16 years and she moved out with me when I went on my own several years ago. So it does feel a bit lonely not having my cat friend around. She was tough and stubborn. She still meowed for food that morning even though she couldn’t eat it and she still tried to come out and see me when I came home from work even though it took her a while and she could barely stand. She tried to stand all throughout the evening up until she just couldn’t anymore. During the final attempt to stand I put my hands underneath her so she could fall back down gently and I made myself a little bed beside her and stayed with her until the end. I am extremely grateful to have been there for her.

On a more cheerful note; I am enjoying my new apartment. It is a bit cheaper than the last one but a bit bigger. I love that I have a pantry. I still have work to do as far as decorating and arranging goes but I love to do that. The living room is really nice, I will show it off once it is complete. I am enjoying being in a new neighborhood. It’s refreshing to have a change of scenery and new areas to explore.

I’ve tried modeling two times so far and I’ve taken my own pictures. I am wearing more tight fitting clothes too. I’ve come a long way with that. I used to hide my body in baggy clothes for years. In grade 10 for the entire year I wore an over-sized hoodie and PJ pants. For two years when I lived in Fredericton, I wore skirts everyday… I hated my skinny legs and hid them. I’m wearing things now I would never have worn just a year ago. I’m being bold despite still not being 100% comfortable in my body. I am accepting that it is mine and that is possible for me to change it and I will. I haven’t given up on my weight gain goal but I am learning to live with I have and to have fun with it.

I start school next week. I am both excited and nervous. I am only taking one class this time and I will continue to work 5 days a week. I’ll be good and busy.

It’s been about a month since I’ve been to the gym BUT I have been working out at home and that I have been enjoying quite a bit. I have been keeping busy overall and that is such an improvement for me.

When you are feeling down don’t stay in one spot. You need to get out and move. If you really can’t bring yourself to go out then at least move within your home, watch something, read something, do something! It’s when you do nothing that you fall into despair and can’t escape. You’ve got to keep moving!

This post turned out a bit messy I suppose; just a random update.
So far this year I haven’t reached my weight gain goal but I have strengthened mentally, especially recently. I tried something new; modeling and moved to new area. That for me is important progress.

xxx

Outfit of the Day [3]

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Hello everyone. Yes, I said about a month ago that I was taking a break from social media but here I am again. My cat passed away last week and I came back online to get in touch with people. I don’t know if I am coming or going. I will be here for now. These photos I took about a month ago before going offline, they disappeared from Instagram and I don’t know why so here is the full set.

Hope everyone had a good weekend ❤

xxx

Social Media 📱👥

If you use social media everyday I recommend watching this video. For me, it was inspiring. I have deactivated my Facebook. I’ve been bored with Facebook for a while now so that was easy. Now I need to disengage from Instagram. I am inspired to do the 6 month break from social media very soon! I think it is exactly what I need.

🌈 Rainbow Bubbles 🌈

*3 more photos added June 19th*

I was cleaning the cabinet underneath my bathroom sink and there was a purple hair dye spill. When I went to rinse the cloth the purple dripped nicely in the sink. From there I filled it up with more water and added bubbles… then slowly added more colors with food coloring, then finally came glitter. These are pictures of the rainbow bubbles for now and I used a kaleidoscope effect to play with the design. I could play with these images all night… I hope you enjoy them as much as I do! I’m going to continue playing around with the other images and will share them if they turn out.

Have a good week everyone!

xxx

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