My friend gave me a piece of Malachite. It’s a gorgeous piece and it’s meaning is very appropriate for me right now.
It is a Stone of Transformation, assisting one in changing situations and providing for spiritual growth. It heals on physical and emotional levels, drawing out impurities and stimulating the Life Force throughout the aura and body.
Malachite is a protection stone, absorbing negative energies and pollutants from the atmosphere and from the body.
As a stone of transformation, Malachite encourages change and emotional risk-taking. It shows what is blocking your spiritual growth, draws out deep feelings and psychosomatic causes, then allows you to break unwanted ties and outworn patterns. It encourages the expression of feelings, alleviating shyness and teaching the responsibility for one’s own thoughts and actions. It supports friendships and empathy for other people.
Malachite helps battle depression and anxiety, gives resistance to emotional blackmail and heals emotional abuse, especially when suffered in childhood. It also encourages healthy relationships based on love and not need.Malachite assists in overcoming fear of confrontation, or fear of being seen or noticed, and helps one find the strength within to assume their rightful place in the Universe.
I am a person with a lot of negative energy dwelling within, a lot of anger and resentment towards myself and others. I acknowledge this is a problem that I want to overcome. I’m tired of living in the past, I want to enjoy life moment to moment. I acknowledge that this transformation will be ongoing for the rest of my life and that it wont always be easy especially in the beginning. I am making progress though. It’s little so far but it still counts. ❤
As those of you who know me and whoever has read this blog know I am trying to make productive changes in my life.
Recently I got a gym membership, a new tattoo, my boyfriend gave me a beautiful ring, and I shaved off my hair! All symbols of self improvement, a new beginning, & love.
I have tried to start fresh many times and have relapsed each time so far. I do expect to have my days where I feel bad and don’t eat as much, it has already happened, but I intend to not let those days keep me down. This time is the first time I am going to the gym. This will make a difference. I was nervous at first but my boyfriend has been going with me and showing me the ropes! It’s actually kinda fun 🙂
I am trying to visualize myself heavier and I keep a bathing suit up on the wall for me to see everyday so that I am reminded of my weight gain goal. It would be a dream come true to be able to be comfortable enough in my body to wear a swimsuit! The last time I was in a swimsuit was when I was 13 years old, I am now 27!
I have gained a couple of pounds in the last couple of weeks. However, in the past few days I worked more and ate less. My mood shifted in the negative as well. It has been very dark and rainy too and my thoughts began to match the weather. Tonight I am doing laundry and waiting for my friend from out of town to arrive. I just ordered a pizza. I will take some Apetamin, a vitamin syrup that helps stimulate an appetite and slows down your metabolism, and eat as much as I can.
We may not always see it but the sun is always shining.
Thank you to everyone for the positive feedback on my posts so far!
So today I went to one of my favorite second hand clothing stores to look for something nice to wear to a burlesque show my friend and I are going to this weekend… I did find some pretty tops and… a faux fur coat! Only $15 too. It was just there standing out, calling to me. This now my 5th faux fur and I decided to make a post about it and share my collection. I absolutely love them! It is now too warm to wear it but I will be rocking it this winter! It has pom poms too! 😀
So there is my collection. I am aware that I should created a cleaner/less distracting background for outfit photos. I will try to figure something out for future posts.
Thanks so much to everyone who has read my blog so far!
I was browsing Pinterest and came across this image:
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These 8 factors were found during a study on happiness by Duke University.
I find these factors quite useful for self reflection and felt a need to share!
Personal take on these factors:
The absence of suspicion and resentment. I hold grudges for years. Time to let go! This is a big one for me and will most likely take a while for me to master it.
Not living in the past. I spend too much time in the past. So much time wasted that could instead be spent in the present and planning for the future.
Not wasting time and energy fighting conditions you cannot change. Yes… Go with the flow, man.
Force yourself to stay involved with the living world. Yes when I am unhappy I curl into a ball in bed and don’t eat or want to speak to anyone. The last few times I felt down I watched educational and thought provoking videos on YouTube instead. Now that is nice out I will go for more walks!
Refuse to indulge in self-pity. Hmm.. self-pity. I don’t really pity myself. I am aware that I am lucky to have a roof over my head, food to eat and family and friends that love me. Instead of self-pity I have had a bad habit of just insulting myself for letting negative feelings take over and for wasting so much time being stuck instead of being productive. I’m looking at the definition of self pity and I don’t think it is the same thing. I am aware that I am fortunate and I don’t pity myself. I’ve just been angry and annoyed with myself.
Cultivate the old-fashioned virtues–love, humor, compassion and loyalty. Yes I will continue to improve on them as well as other virtues; assertiveness, confidence, courage, creativity, peacefulness, purposefulness, responsibility, and self-discipline. I’m overall trying to work on becoming a more virtuous individual.
Do not expect too much of yourself. Yes, this one will be important when I go back to school in the Fall. I am too hard on myself if I don’t get an A.
Find something bigger than yourself to believe in. I have some ideas but I will have to think about this one some more. 🙂
*Updated April 18th; Video added at the end of the post, Enjoy.*
Bad experiences are not an excuse to become a bad person.
We are a product of the choices we make, not the circumstances that we face. – Roger Crawford
When you are born into and/or face unfortunate and difficult circumstances in your life you have two choices on how you can deal with these experiences:
First, you can allow these experiences to consume you and to hold you back. You cause harm to yourself and to others. You allow anything difficult and painful that happened to you turn you into a unfavorable person. A person unable to take action, make changes and take responsibility. You become toxic.
Or, you can use these obstacles as stepping stones to become someone great, to rise above them and to not let them hold you back. You acknowledge what happened, break the chain and move on. You seek help when needed and perhaps even take the extra step to help others who faced the same challenges as you. You become strong.
The road is tougher when you are faced with obstacles and perhaps in some cases it is a bit more limited. However those who face the toughest battles are still capable of being the best they can be. These are people we admire.
Your circumstances set the stage but your choices determine the show.